Mistress Zhao

My "shadow" self has very little to do with BDSM. It has more to do with my ego's demands to be recognized and validated as someone who is attractive and intelligent. This poses problems in the split identities arena, as the dualities become twice the work to manage in this "shadow play". Over the course of the years that I have been "becoming" I strive to unite these dualities in both the aspect of idenitity, as well as the anima/animus, and finally the public/shadow self. Relationships play a major part in this integration, both with clients and personally. I feel parts of my shadow self being summoned into play at the Fortress, and utilizing these darknesses allows me to recognize, accept, and play with them. Of course, there are parts of my shadow self that I have not had the courage to display in session, ones that I feel would compromise my dominance over others. These are ones that I work on in private, but relentlessly. I think that the more I become aware of these shadows, the "thinner" it becomes, and the more whole I feel. It's still a work in progress though!

Speak for yourself! What kind of asinine old lady would bring her own antique grocery cart that tears open?? I kid. But agreed!

YES! I found Hannibal to be almost equally satisfying. Almost. But it did further my understanding on how anyone could indulge in such misanthropic whims.

Oh, and this is a big one: schadenfreude

I know this one, but my RAM is all scrambled!!! Do tell!

Totino's Pizza. Top Ramen. Interracial porn. Wandering through Forever 21. Ebay. Candy Crush. Law and Order SVU. Dressing like a slob. Cheeseburgers with fries and mayo/ketchup. Really soft cheeses. Chili cheese fries. Frito Pies. Chili cheese hot dogs. Corndogs.

LOL YOU'RE a cheese dip ;-P

We're on the same page, here

Teehehe I'm very happy you like your gift. I hope I get to witness you breaking it in! Wonder if you'll have to do the whipping in our hallway..

My resolution is to traumatize more subs

The Holy Mountain: I love Jodorowsky's epic masterpiece of his journey through symbols and their meanings, the alchemy of the human soul portrayed through moving images. Each time I watch this film, I pick up something new and incredibly profound, so I only watch it once every few years. Secretary: This twisted love story is one I can relate to on so many levels, obviously, but is also much truer to bdsm form than anything else out there! Being John Malkovich: Charlie Kaufman and Spike Jonze, need I say more? I love worlds that are slightly surreal, where just one strange anomaly turns into fun chaotic drama. Also, seeing Cameron Diaz looking so homely and desperate was a treat.

Safe words are great in a scene that is more strict and immersive, but I find many of my sessions are casual enough so that communication stays consistently open. Also, I like the idea of playing games with safe word usage. Like limiting a sub to a certain number of times he's allowed to use it. Or changing it up periodically during one session so that he forgets the right one (in the midst of being overstimulated). Or having it be a rather complex and/or humiliating phrase that needs to be bellowed loudly. Or having a "safe noise" like a chicken's cluck. My favorite (not really) is the preemptive use of a safe word. Which earns the sub zero chances to get to use it ever.

Only for you, my sweet little Milkdud. Miniature white doves attached to fishing hooks that pierce the skin, and sharp little glass icicles that dangle and poke into your tender bits!

No, it's just a myth.

Consullncitatus, This new journey in your life will be a fun one. I find that the younger generation's attitude about bdsm is much more open and casual, so it should be no problem to "break you in" with a smattering of new activities to see where your interests lie. I presume you're not exactly a masochist (yet) but with the right chemistry, hopefully your boundaries will expand and your repertoire broaden. Only one way to find out! Just remember that the first time is often a session about "feeling each other out" and to not get too stuck in your head about what "should" happen, just go with the flow. Hope that helps!

Agreed. I have so much fun perving out in the aisles of hardware stores and kitchenware shops.

Noted. Crisco comes in a butter flavor. Buttbutter!

"SPARM" hahahahahaha!!! I love that Steve Harvey does his dance and then, "maybe we all still get to go to heaven"!

That gives me an idea, Manpeach! I think it would be festive to decorate you (or whomever) up like a Christmas tree. Lights, bells, popcorn garland! Clip-on doves! And a massive pole to prop it up in case it droops! And for all the Jewish peeps out there, I would turn you into a Menorah. Hold 9 candles at once! Celebrating the holidays has just taken a turn into merriment for me!

I think it would be fun to grow belladonna impregnated thorns and demand a tongue bath So Phred, you're not game? How sad! I thought you'd love bathing me with your tongue! The antidote is called Antilirium. So apt.

Or chocolate covered bacon!

HAHAHAHA if only that sort of thing existed...too bad it doesn't! Better train those quads for stamina, or get some nice, hard callouses on your tender little buttcheeks soon. And yes, a prickle of porcupines. My favorites are a business of ferrets, a parliament of owls, and a pandemonium of parrots.

That would be one dangerous Winnebago!

TickleTortureMe, Tickling is one of my favorite activities! I even tickle people who don't ask for it! I do hope that you'll leave it up to us to find our own way to tickle-torture you. And I do hope that you're hopelessly ticklish! You'll be guaranteed breathless by the end of the three hours!