Hi there Shy Boy. I put myself in your category and I would go so far as to say most of us have felt the way you do now. It took me a very long time to finally pull the trigger and have my first session. The desire basically kept building and building and I got to the point where it just didn't matter anymore, I needed to have my first session. It was not at the Fortress and it was ok to calm my desires but of course they built up again and again. There were a couple of other visits and various places until I finally found the Fortress. Unfortunately the Mistress I had desired to serve had an extended leave of absence and as a result, I did not seek out others at the Fortress and did not seek the counsel of Mistress Kang. Wolf is right, ask Ms Kang for guidance. Be honest with her and she will give you the right path to follow. Although I took a long time to finally session at the Fortress, when I realized how wonderful Ms. Kang was, being so patient with me, answering all my questions via email, etc, she made it easy for me to finally make an appointment. She never sounded frustrated at all the questions and emails and maybe because I told her I was a novice. She even remembered to email me when my Mistress returned and I made an appointment. Although I was extremely nervous, the desire to serve was too overpowering to give in to the shyness and I am so very glad it was. Its was such a great ride that I want to relive it over and over again. If you truly feel the desire to be dominated, you won't be sorry seeking the counsel of Ms Kang and taking the next step. Please let us know what you decide and how it turns out.
MisterWinerack