Orgies aren't all that. Have you ever had one? When it's all said and done, you're sitting around like you you were all just in an awkward physical fight.
It's such a great mockumentary. Use of the outdated "Asian Dominatrix". Emphasis on safe, sane, and consensual. "I'm finally getting that sense of control that I so desperately seek and lack in every day life". I feel like I've seen a dozen version of this before LOL
So good..
Expand on the emotions I feel during session? The ones you listed, joy, pity, simple plasures of dominance, but none that would bring me to tears. Crying is reserved for extreme sadness like death. I know some people cry out of joy, but not me.
No, and I never would, just like I would never cry during or after sex. I can completely understand crying as the submissive, but the emotions released during session do not invoke tears for me. It's just different as the dominant.
Hindsight is 20/20. I think you were right to request some time to think about it since HB IS a serious commitment. How can one agree to such a commitment on the spot with someone they just met. To answer so immediately without thought is by definition not taking it seriously. Sounds to me she may have felt personally slighted by the request to mull it over.