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I've started a list, trying to decide what I might want to explore next...just thinking about it is overwhelming...

A little while ago I made my second visit to the Fortress. (In my first session ever in the pink room, after an initial chat to glean my interests, Mistress Hadid had used a variety of toys and tools to help me get a sense of what I might like -- including sensory deprivation, sensation play (wax, electro), impact, bondage, and humiliation -- and I couldn't wait to return to push myself harder and lean more into roleplay. Mistress Hadid was incredibly helpful for a first-timer and had me in subspace for days.) Coming back for a second session, I decided to try double-domination, again in the pink room, and I'm so glad I did. Mistresses Hadid and Feng both did a fantastic job taking my outline/concept/interests and then pushing me beyond what I thought I could take. (And when I needed a break, they were immediately sensitive to my needs and safety.) I also really enjoyed how well they played off each other to up the intensity, and were able to tradeoff the play to keep the session humming along while other things were being prepared. As a result, for two hours I underwent relentless suffering as they tied me up, beat me, teased me, and insulted me for my perversions. The experience both times has felt completely safe and professional, and both Ms. Hadid and Ms. Feng are experts at their craft. I can't wait to return the next time I'm in the city and explore some more -- the only question on my mind is what what I want to try next.

I feel this a lot -- but I think I will become more comfortable with each session so hoping that embarrassment fades