AranGar

Thank you TDM and Mistress Feng! Funny enough before you answered, I was browsing through the forums and thought Mistress Feng is someone who I would love to serve. I guess I will take that as a sign. Here goes nothing. Thank you again.

Thank you. I know you said any of the mistresses will be great. There are none that have a special skill when it comes to newbies? I think I am going to book a session, but the thought is really giving me mixed emotions. Excitement yes. But also fear. I have not even booked yet and I already have that knot in my stomach. I know that if I do get the courage to book, I am going to be beyond timid and shy. I am not sure I will be able to look up or even speak. Maybe that is the fear playing in my mind, but the thought is playing havoc with my emotions. I have suppressed these desires for so long I think it has taken a mental toll on me. But now that I am ready to take the next step, it is pretty daunting.

Hello. I am completely unexperienced in this lifestyle, but have had some desires for most of my life. I have a specific appetite, serving as a full service toilet, that I would love to try and fulfill but I am not sure who if any offer it. On top of that I am not sure I would be able to stomach it, as I have very little experience with it. Some, but not a lot. But I really want to try. I would just need to go slow. I have some of the more normal fetishes too, like foot worship, etc. I have heard this is the place for it, but not sure who offers it. I am an extreme introvert so this is very difficult for me. Just writing this is hard. But I feel I have been denying myself for so long, and there is a way for me to experience it, I just need to do it. I am seriously thinking of booking a session, but want to make sure it with someone who offers what I am looking for. I am also hoping to connect with like minded individuals. It is kind of a lonely thing not being able to share this. I am realizing that while extreme, and not many people are into it, there are more than I probably realize.